Hello, Lancypants
I’ve fallen into a bit of a funk this year. I don’t think it’s so much because I miss you, but I definitely don’t feel like myself. Maybe it is still grief. That’s the thing about grief, it plays out in many different ways. I was talking to one of the receptionists at the place you used to go see Dr. P at and she mentioned your name and I silently started crying. Why? Why does that still randomly happen? It will be a little difficult when we take Lili there for a visit, but I hope I will think of the good times together we had while we take care of Lili.
Lynn and Lance at the park, with Lili.
I wish you were here to cuddle with me on the bed. I still miss you laying by my legs at night. Or stealing the bed when I would get up to use the bathroom.
One of the things I miss most is our early morning walks. Did I like getting up early? Not always, but it was our time together. It didn’t matter if we walked in the neighborhood or we went to the dog park, it was our time. And you were always so sweet about waking me up early. I still tell people how you would gently come up to me if I was sleeping and kindly ask to go out. And the best part was the mornings I would get you breakfast after our morning walk. You loved your CFA chicken minis.
Lili hasn’t been feeling well lately. I know you two didn’t always get along, but I like to think about the times you did get along. I look back at the pictures of you two sleeping together, so I know it happened. I know you used to play together and sleep near one another. But then your pain was too much and you took things out on her.
Early days when Lance and Lili would hang out with each other.
But her IBD has really been flaring up lately and we are taking her to see another specialist. Could you say a few prayers for her and have some of your doggy friends send her get well wishes? I want to keep her with me for as long as I can. But I also know if things don’t go well for her, you’ll be there to take care of her and get settled into dog heaven. I hope you two will be friends again and you can play like you used to.
I love you,
Woman